Let You Go

My pride wouldn’t let me admit that you, my formidable foe, were hurting me

You did not relent and kept on pounding harshly on my chest

Beaten and battered my anger rose as the sun set

In the darkness, I turned my stony face toward the moon,

Hoping you would not see me cry

I did not want you to think I was weak

So many people told me to let you go

But, you were such a friendly fiend

I became familiar with all your ways

And, you stole my heart

You built a protective fort around us

No one could every break down the thick walls to get to us

Our defenses were up

And we kept up the façade that I was safe

I was never lonely as you kept my company

Speaking to me day and night

The fire you sent through my veins intoxicated me

I was forever yours

Yes, my friends warned me against you

But, before I knew it you were a fixture in my heart

Now, I realize they were right

I became your prisoner

I became your slave

When I struggled to get away you held on so tight

I didn’t want any more of the pain

You hurt me and you made me hurt others

You made me desolate and depressed

Using all your might against me,  you broke my will

I searched for hope and I found it deep beyond my soul

The Spirit within gave me more light than the moon offered in the tortuous darkness of my soul

Then, I realized I had to make a choice to leave you

If not, I would forever be imprisoned by you

My weeping lasted through the night

But, now it is morning

Today, I will stand firm against you, my great enemy

I will see my salvation

The battle was never mine

So, I will give it up and I will let you go

By N. Carara